Ever since I saw the movie Under The Tuscan Sun, I have always wanted to take my mom to Tuscany.
We have previously visited Florence and loved it, even though we flew out on September 11th, which was the day I found out what terrorism was too.
Italy is just a sumptuous place to be. Everyone and everything just feels so full of life. I think we only had three days in Florence so we stayed within the city and because of this, I have always longed to explore the Italian countryside.
I was recently invited by Tuscany Now to enter a their #TuscanyNominate blogging competition to win a trip for two to stay in a luxury villa in Tuscany. I don’t usually enter blogging competitions, however, this competition really hits home.
To enter, I am to nominate someone who deserves a break away to the Tuscan countryside and no one deserves that nomination more than my long-suffering mother.
This year has been super tough for me, and as a consequence for her too. You see we are very close, especially since we are the only family that we have. Our relationship is unique in that we still live together and are best friends who pretty much do everything together. In a way, we kind of grew up together too, she was very young when she had me and we both lived through my father’s abuse.
Life for me has felt like being trapped in a washing machine. I’ve been battling an unseen opponent that attacks me from out of nowhere and being unable to cope has made things worse. I’ve been trying super hard to just be like normal people and portray a normal life but behind the scenes, it’s been hell most days.
My mom has stood by my side through it all and taken on the nose all of my irritability and frustration that comes out as short tempered in her direction. She is a trooper and anyone else would have lost their temper with my by now. She has felt pretty helpless through it all too which has made us both feel guilty.
Today however, I finally got diagnosed and I have been absolutely overwhelmed with relief to finally put a face to this invisible attacker. Yes, I have been suffering from depression, but it has been a result of chronic adult ADD because unlike most people, I didn’t grow out of my childhood ADHD.
Mom and I have been sitting together in tears overwhelmed with relief and joy and new hope for a future where I can learn to manage my limitations and finally build a life within them.
A break away in Tuscany will be a much needed reward for my mom who has lived her life solely to support me, working long insufferable hours caring for elderly people in their homes as a live-in care worker. She has suffered severe burn out and nervous breakdowns as a result of this work, only to come home and have to live with someone struggling immensely with depression and the frustration of not knowing what is wrong with them.
I #TuscanyNominate my mom, any gift I can give my mother for giving me her life, is a gift well earned.