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Hey everybody!

Today I turned 34. OH. MY. GOD.

I seriously cannot get my head around my actual, on my passport age. I certainly don’t feel anywhere near my age. I mean yeah, I’m blessed with awesome wisdom and know-better knowledge, but if I look at other people my age, they’re all married with kids and boring, dull jobs (mostly), while I just keep getting more awesome haha!

Nothing’s changed, I still love horses, food and being barefoot!

This weekend some of my closest friends and I will be dressing up and going to Proud Cabaret in Camden to celebrate. I really can’t wait because I love burlesque and performance art, especially since that’s a dream I never made happen… I also have two very close friends with birthdays either side of me (3rd and 8th Feb) and am good friends with a guy who shares the exact same birthdate as me! And they are all awesome peeps!

I love being in my 30′s though. On my 30th birthday I had some sexy times with my 19 year old flatmate while living in Western Australia, and I tell you this, not only because I have no shame, but because it’s moments like that which remind me I’ve had an awesome life and will have many great memories to look back on when I’m old (and probably still a spinster).

Being in my 30′s means I know myself so much more and I care less what people think. I’ve made it through 30 years of trials and tribulations and because of that I’ve come to honour and respect myself. Your 20′s can be hell and I always say moving from your 20′s to your 30′s is like being on a ship in a white squall and then when you hit 30, the storm finally ends and it’s (relatively) plain sailing. You just suddenly calm down, or at least I did, and things make sense and become a bit easier (probably because you’ve become better at life).

I started partying pretty young, at 14, going out drinking and finding a lift home and I partied pretty hard right up until my mid 20′s. These days I would rather stay at home with pizza, wine and a good movie or go out to dinner with friends. Occasionally I get wild at some unusual event and I think that’s essentially what keeps us young, the intention to never let go of our childish wonder and fearless expression.

I’m still pretty scared of being 40 and I don’t date guys older than me (they scare me too, but probably because I’m so young at heart), but my mom is just 20 years older than me and she is known among my friends as the cool mom who parties with us – she has a huge tattoo on her entire back designed by one of our friends – so I know things will be a-ok.

Are any of you born in February? Know any Aquarians? Say hello in the comments so I can wish you a happy birthday!

Portrait and painting done by my dad.

It’s been too long since I did a thanksgiving post and while America is celebrating their Thanksgiving, I believe it shouldnt be saved for once a year, but should be a daily practice. Counting your blessings on the daily turns what you have into enough and opens the door to more good things because just like anyone giving a gift that goes unappreciated making you unlikely to give another gift, so Life treats us if we take things for granted.

If you find yourself stuck and your life not going so great, think back to last time you counted your blessings and truly felt appreciation for food in your fridge, a hot shower and a warm bed in a safe home. Those are just the basics, how about the ability to see, smell, and use all of your limbs and in turn those things making it possible for you to earn a living and experience life.

Everything else, is just seasoning and because I have my eyes, arms and the brainpower to appreciate the seasoning, here is what Im grateful for right now:

My mom. She is my life support, working a job she doesn’t enjoy in order to support us both. I’ve been going through a difficult time and unable to work or even get out of bed some days, my mom has been there no matter what doing everything she can to support me and make a home for us.
Last week Facebook gave me a £25 advertising voucher which was very nice of them and has so far earned me more than 130 new followers on my page. I think that’s totally awesome because Im reaching more people and the more is indeed the merrier!
I’ve spent the last six weeks or so wallowing alone at home (in a new town where I dont know anyone) and on a particularly low day I called a friend of mine who manages a hostel down in Cornwall where I used to live. She suggested I go stay at the hostel and hang out with people and old friends in the hopes it would lift my spirits and give me new inspiration. I was able to stay in her private part of the hostel and help out for free board while she is on holiday with her boyfriend and the idea worked. I came back renewed and as you can see, I am back to blogging up a storm and feeling much better!
Last year I had a cervical smear and colposcopy that came back abnormal, they told me I would have to have cells cut out or I could try to heal it myself over a six month period. Being that I am into nutritional therapy, I did some research and found that taking 3000mg of L-Lysine per day as well as eating mustard greens and broccoli four times a week should reverse the condition. Of course, no smoking and leading a healthy lifestyle helps! Well, I got new results back and I am perfectly healthy! I also had an eye test today and my eyes are healthy. For someone who has been severely short sighted since birth, that is always good news!
Im thankful for the couple who sat with me through my tears and who tried to help, the wife gave me my first crystal healing and I really feel that it worked. I have felt energised and happy ever since and after weeks of depression, well, I am very grateful for their time and effort.
Jasmin receiving my gift for her birthday. It was some prints, postcards and coasters I picked up while in Paris. The post office warned me they may not reach her in New York due to Hurricane Sandy, but they made it and she was happy and thats all good!